To be sold eventually to strangers
My dad’s dresser, top drawer on the left. Camera body, a couple of watches, several lens filters, his Tau Beta Pi key from 1947, batteries, instruction manuals. And a tiny white envelope with, in his engineer’s printing, the words GOLD CROWN, that contains a gold crown.
This house was new when we moved in, over Christmas 1964. And now it’s time to clean it out, to let it – and all the stuff – find new owners. The state of that drawer is indicative of every drawer, cabinet, shelf in the house. All full, all a jumble of crap and stuff that may not be crap, things I ought to be sentimental about and things I’m not.
How am I going to decide what to keep? What to throw out? What to leave for the estate sale?
But before that, how will I even know where to start?
And how can I dispose of everything my dad accumulated for his whole life, and still look him in the eye when I visit him at the assisted living center?
My dad was a civil engineer. He started his career in San Angelo, Texas, working for the highway department. He says he thought he’d spend his career there, until his boss told him it was “too bad” that his degree was from the “wrong” school. It seems that back the the big guys at the highway department went to Texas A&M and he’d gotten his degree from Texas Technological College (now Texas Tech University).
He stuck around long enough, though, to meet my mom in Sonora, Texas. According to an entry in their wedding album, he proposed to her in the car, while they were parked along the Ozona Highway. Sounds about right, I guess, for an engineer to take his beloved out to look at a road before he popped the question.
He left the highway department, and went to work for Phillis Petroleum, in Borger, Texas, and then moved to Lubbock in 1956 and went to work at Parkhill, Smith, and Cooper, where he worked until he retired. He did well there, working on a variety of big projects across the country. His particular area of expertise was water- and sewage-treatment facilities. I can remember on many (most, actually) family vacations we’d stop along the way to look at sewage plants. Nothing says “vacation” like the smell of effluent, that’s for sure!
After he retired from working, he mostly retired from wearing neckties. He’d wear one if he had to, but would complain about it. But he kept some, neatly hanging on their rack, just inside the left-hand side of the closet.
We are cleaning out the house now, and I guess someone will be happy to take over the neckties.
My parents were good at keeping things, but really bad at keeping things organized.
My blue footlocker, that I took to Girl Scout camp, was in the garage storeroom, which also had old camping equipment and a case of motor oil and some tools. And dust. Plenty of it, making a thick coat on everything.
The very first thing I saw when I opened the trunk was this doll, whose head had somehow become detached from the rest of her. I remember this doll – it’s a Madame Alexander doll, and it was for Looking At, not Playing With. She was well-dressed, with that fetching off-the-shoulder dress, trimmed with a velvet ribbon. She has stockings, too, and a lace petticoat, and fancy panties. (In all categories, she’s better dressed than I am.)
I don’t know why this doll was saved. None of our other toys were anywhere around.
I had a Barbie and a Ken. My sister had Midge and Skipper (Barbie’s often-overlooked little sister). My best friend down the street (also named Melinda!) had a Barbie with a large wardrobe of store-bought clothes. At our house, though, our mom made Barbie clothes from Barbie-specific patterns, with scraps from her other sewing projects. I wished my Barbie had a fancy wardrobe – specifically the strapless evening dress in silver lame with a mermaid hem made from tulle and matching plastic high-heeled mules. But my doll wore dresses with set-in sleeves, tiny swing jackets, or cotton sheaths in fabrics that matched the clothes my mom wore.
We didn’t find Barbie, or her extended family, when we cleaned out the house. No hand-made clothes, no patterns. That was a little bit of a disappointment: I wanted to look at those tiny pattern pieces with the holes from the pins that would have been used to secure them to the fabric.
Our parents were remarkably (and surprisingly) progressive when it came to our toys. Sure, we had Barbies. But we also had building blocks, made from corrugated cardboard printed to look like red bricks. And a woodburning set (which one of my boy cousins used to burn a tiny line in the wood floor in my bedroom, and which I never mentioned to anyone until now). And cars and trucks. And books. And a sandbox in the yard.
But back to the footlocker. It held a eclectic mix of things that will be headed to the estate sale. Like the doll and her head. Old pictures of people I don’t recognize. (Oddly enough notes that say “Mama” or “summer” on the backs of photos are not all that helpful.) A white baby dress with pink smocking. A box of pocket watch chains. And the thing is none of this stuff has any meaning to me. There’s no way to know why it was important enough to be kept, or who it belonged to, or why I ought to care. And so it seems like the right thing is to let it go. And hope I don’t regret not keeping any of it.
The house was a time capsule, much of it frozen in place the day my mom died in 2005. The level of housekeeping fell off, the amount of space that was lived in decreased. A few things, though, kept progressing onward. Like wall calendars. My dad has a strong fondness for calendars (they are his go-to Christmas gift for the sons-in-law and grandsons – trains, airplanes, beer, or other special-interest topics chosen specifically for the recipient) and he always treated himself to one or two while he was placing the order. His own choices ran to steam locomotives and scenery from England. For as long as I can remember, a calendar has hung on the left side of the back door, swinging from a nail he pounded into the maple paneling decades ago.
I’m not sure I would have ever decided to hang a calender in the bathroom, but he did: a calendar from the Texas Tech alumni association is there on the wall. (Don’t get the wrong impression: he’s a proud TTU graduate.)
These two calendars – the train one by the back door and the college one above the toilet – are frozen in a different time capsule: August 2012. One morning in the third week of that month, he failed to show up at my husband’s office, as had been his daily habit for the nineteen years since his retirement. My son, who works at the same office, went to look for him, and found him on the floor, under the train calendar. He’d been there all night.
An ambulance came, against his wishes, and took him to the hospital. He’s not been home since. In the intervening months, he’s been in the hospital two times, had a pacemaker implanted, been in one facility we came to refer to as a “skilled” nursing facility, and been in another one that really did have skilled and caring staff; currently lives in an assisted living center. There were times early on when we were all pretty sure he wasn’t going to make it, and times when we thought he’d be able to live at at home again. We were wrong on both.
Cleaning out his house wasn’t as emotional as I had thought it would be. I think I somehow compartmentalized it as just some old, fairly interesting stuff I happened to be sorting through, instead of letting myself think of it as his stuff. Stuff I was deciding to keep, or throw away, or put into the estate sale.
Most of the time, I was able to maintain this false front. I was an archeologist, working in a still-standing relic! I was an historian, looking at interesting artifacts! I was researching interesting names from long-ago family members! (Lulu Green – what a fantastic name!)
But I didn’t let myself become The Oldest Daughter, working at her grim task.
Until the bathroom.
That’s when the ephemera of an old man’s life got to me. The drawer full of disposal razors. The half-used tube of toothpaste and the barely-worn toothbrush. The black plastic comb. Hand lotion tipped up to get the last bits out of the bottle. A metal nail file. And the padded toilet seat. His walker parked there, because he needed help getting up from the toilet. The unstrung role of toilet paper. A completed crossword puzzle book in the wastebasket. And the calendar, turned to August 2012.
First of all, is it possible that my mom invented using drinking straws to corral spools of thread? I’ve never seen anything like that before, but then again, I am possibly the very last person to keep up with trends that involve storing sewing supplies.
When I was growing up, the only store-bought clothes I ever had were my Brownie and Girl Scout uniforms. My mom made everything else. She made matching dresses for my sister and me, for Sundays. She made shorts sets, and coats, and dresses, and elastic-waist pants, and pajamas.
You know what? Now that I am into the third paragraph, I have to confess that our swimsuits were not homemade. Except for one year, when there was a store on 34th Street that sold material for swimsuits. (That was an embarrassing year at the swimming pool: there was some problem with the elastic thread that tended to stretch out when it got wet.) (And that experiment wasn’t repeated.)
I feel better, now that I’ve set the record straight on that.
My memories are hazy on how it worked to pick out patterns and fabric for my outfits when I was very young, which leads me to believe that I didn’t have any say it: I just wore what was there, and that was that. Later on, though, I did have a vote in the process. I can remember, though, standing still while my mom used a yardstick to measure hems in my new dresses. (In junior high and high school, I always wanted the skirts to be significantly shorter than she pinned them. It was sort of a guaranteed argument. The female version of men and their sons fighting over hair length, I guess.)
The expectation was there that my sister and I would learn to sew. And we did. At home, first, then through lessons at the Singer Sewing Center in Caprock Shopping Center. I was good at threading the machine. And the bobbin. And at laying out patterns on the fabric; I could even match plaids! I think I could sew a pretty good dart, and I know I could press it the correct way. But that was about the extent of my sewing abilities. I didn’t really like it, and sort of felt goaded into sewing. I’d have been happier if my clothes had come from Hemphill Wells, or Sweetbriar, or Dunlap’s. (I actually don’t really know if those were the cool stores back then, but let’s assume they were.)
One summer – I think it was the one before I started high school – my mom did take me to Hemphill Wells. We looked at dresses. Didn’t try any on, and sure as hell didn’t BUY any. We did, though, stop at Cloth World on the way home, with the memories of those dresses still fresh, so we could get patterns and fabric to sort-of copy what we’d just seen.
But those clothes still stand out in my mind. There was the green-and-blue sleeveless dress that had blue topstitching on the green, and green topstitching on the blue. And the dress with a big floaty collar. And a blue velveteen one with lace sleeves. Or a mostly-blue calico print shift with bell sleeves. And a purple skirt and vest with a gold blouse. (It was the 70s, OK?) Or a winter-white wool cape. Or, for the first year girls could wear pants to school, a “coordinated pants suit” that had a long vest over bell-bottom pants. (“Coordinated pants suits” were required. None of this un-matched pants-and-top stuff, and certainly no jeans!)
Later, there was a chiffon and lace wedding dress, with approximately one mile of lace sewn by hand to the full chiffon skirt.
So it is starting to seem like my dislike of homemade clothes is something I’ve projected back to my past, instead of something that actually happened. Why else would I have such strong memories of those clothes my mom made for me? Why else would I have, right now, hanging in my coat closet, my recently-rediscovered wedding dress?
And why would seeing those spools of thread, threaded onto straws, have brought a tear to my eye?
1. Once, when I was in junior high and my dad and I were going through one of our times of not getting along, he sent me a letter. I can only remember two things about it. One was that after my friend Jan read it, she said, “He sounds like a preacher.”
2. After a long career that involved meeting people all the time, and talking to them, and making presentations to City Councils and so forth, my dad has diagnosed himself with social anxiety disorder. (Thanks a lot for that, Mayo Clinic Newsletter.)
3. My mom really was very shy. In groups, especially, until she found one person (or a child: she liked kids) to talk to.
4. Both of them were generally content to spend their time in each other’s company, doing quiet things like reading or sewing. They almost never went out with friends, and as far as I know my dad always came straight home from work at the end of the day. (Right after my dad retired, there was some talk of taking ballroom dancing with another couple, but that never got past the talking-about-it-stage.)
5. They both were active church members. Once, my mom was teaching Sunday School for three year olds – the class was called Toddlers – at the same time my dad taught a class for senior citizens. He dubbed them the Old Toddlers. We laughed about that for a long time, but don’t bring it up any more: now that he is an Old Toddler himself, it might not be quite as amusing as it used to be.
6. So depending on how you look at it, this either makes no sense or a lot of sense: both of them spent years working as volunteer chaplains at the hospital. They’d go on hospital visits every Sunday afternoon, still wearing their good church clothes, and spend a few hours stopping by to visit patients.
7. My deepest admiration goes to them for doing that; it’s not something I could do.
8. It’s been almost fifteen years since Methodist Hospital changed its name (and its religious affiliation, too) to Covenant Medical Center. But, my parents’ nametags from their chaplain days were still in the dresser drawer.
Eventually, it came to this. My dad’s pantry was stocked with instant noodles and cans of soup: his solitary meals easy to prepare. But it breaks my heart to think of him, alone in my mom’s kitchen, stirring water into a cup of noodles.
My mom was a dental assistant before she got married, but in the tradition of the times, didn’t work after the wedding. When my sister and I were older, she worked as a classroom volunteer for Head Start, and still later as a pre-school teacher at a Presbyterian church’s child care center. Mostly, though, she was stay-at-home wife.
We had home-cooked meals nearly every night. Our family tradition was to eat out one time a month, and the honor of choosing the location rotated among family members. The favorites were Furr’s Cafeteria (where we could marvel at the tea cart lady’s big hair) and Youngblood’s Fried Chicken, though from time to time we’d be adventurous and go to the Ming Tree, where we could have some Chinese food while the owner of the place entertained the patrons with magic tricks.
Only a few things that my mom cooked have stuck in my memory, though surely her repertoire was much larger than my list suggests.
Salmon Croquettes – patties made from canned salmon, egg, and mashed up saltine crackers then fried until brown.
Chicken Tetrazzine – a fancy name for chicken and spaghetti.
Tuna Casserole – there was a time when she was on a tuna casserole kick; I still remember that smell. And my memories aren’t necessarily fond….
Macaroni and Cheese – she made the best mac and cheese ever.
King Ranch Casserole – the KRC phase came after the tuna casserole. This dish, named for (but probably never served at) the huge Texas ranch, was made from layers of corn tortillas, chicken, cream of mushroom soup, cheese, and so on. It was thought to be pretty exotic, for its time.
Tacos – with packaged seasoning mix cooked with ground beef. Also exotic.
Canned Chinese food – also exotic, which I guess was served for those nights when a trip to the Ming Tree wasn’t feasible.
Stuffed bell peppers – when we were little, she’d make an alternate dinner for my sister and me, of unseasoned ground beef cooked in a small skillet. I still always associate that little aluminum skillet with stuffed bell peppers.
Aunt Debby’s Rolls – a recipe from my Aunt Debby (which you might have figured out), with All Bran cereal as the main ingredient. I think there’s a chance of an error in the handwritten recipe, because the rolls never did rise up to be more than a half-inch high. But still, these rolls were a staple, and the recipe was never modified. Or switched out for another one.
Scotch Cake – a chocolate sheet cake with a pecan and coconut topping. The note on the typed recipe card says, “I don’t understand the name of this cake. I just call in my ‘boil it’ cake.”
Pie crust – oddly enough, though my mom wasn’t a terrific cook, she made excellent pie crusts, using the recipe straight off the inside back cover of the Betty Crocker cookbook.
I have her recipe card box and a couple of binders with her recipe collection. Most of the recipes are handwritten, and include her unique spelling style. If you know what I mean.
There are two mysteries in the binders:
Mackerel Loaf – I have absolutely no recollection of this at all, but the page is stained as though the recipe was prepared at least one time. Reading through the ingredients (canned mackerel, chopped pickles, eggs, milk, white sauce) makes me think there is a possibility of a repressed memory. Maybe my memory of smelly tuna casserole is actually a memory of mackerel loaf.
Stir ‘n Roll Biscuits – this is written in my dad’s handwriting. He never made biscuits. Ever. Why would he have copied down a recipe?
So, when it was time to clean out the house, which had been vacant for a year, the sad contents of the pantry reminded me all over again of how much we’d lost.
I’d be happy to share the mac and cheese recipe. And if you ask nicely, I’ll throw in the mackerel loaf one, too.
PS – My parents mourned the decline of Furr’s Cafeteria. The grand piano in the corner disappeared. The tea cart ladies did, too. But the one thing that my folks felt symbolized the decline was when the silverware was no longer wrapped in cloth napkins. My dad still talks about that. And now he points out that the cloth napkins at his assisted living center have been replaced by paper ones, which disturbs him.
The first thing I noticed, nearly, when I started cleaning out my dad’s house was the huge number of toothpicks lying about. On the breakfast table. On the metal tray where he kept the toaster. On the lamp table beside his TV chair. By the sink. Next to his computer. On the nightstand. On the lavatory. On the kitchen counter. In the junk drawer in the kitchen. On top of the clothes dryer. Next to his briefcase.
I don’t think he’d thrown away a toothpick in years.
Where he lives now, in an assisted living center, I don’t think he has toothpicks in his room.
I wonder if he misses them.
My dad wore braces on his teeth when he was a kid. He’s 90 now, so he was a kid a very long time ago. And it wasn’t like he lived in a city, where even in those early days of orthodontia, braces would have been easy to obtain: he lived in a small town in the Texas panhandle.
His teeth are crooked again now, having found their way back, over the decades, to the places in his jaw where they started out.
My mom was always self-conscious about her teeth, which were very crooked. She finally got braces, as an adult, and seemed to smile a lot more once her teeth looked better.
I wore braces twice. Once for six years, spanning all of junior high and a good part of high school.
Then, I got them again about 15 years ago, and wore them for a little more than a year.
I was a much more compliant patient when I was paying for the braces myself.
I dream about teeth. Broken teeth, mostly. Broken teeth like shards of glass in my mouth. Broken teeth that I keep spitting out, over and over; there’s never an end to these tooth-shards. I often have vivid dreams, but this is the only one that recurs. What in the world? Well, the Dream Encyclopedia* has this to say regarding the symbology of dreams about teeth:
Loosing the teeth may reflect a loss of power as well as a grasp of life circumstances.
I suppose I concur with that assessment. The past year and a little more has been a time of great upheaval, a time when I often felt as though my grasp of things was slipping. But I try to remember that no matter how much upheaval I’ve felt and had to deal with, it is a tiny drop compared to what my dad has gone through. In a short period, he went from owning a home full of his life’s possessions and living on his own and on his own terms, to holding a couple of checks after the house and its contents sold. Everything he owns now is compressed down to what fits into that efficiency apartment, and he has to ask me to run his errands.
He’s never asked for toothpicks.
*The Dream Encyclopedia, James R. Lewis
Spanish textbooks might not seem like something you’d expect to run across, especially ones like this, which obviously have some years on them.
My dad spent about a year and a half in the mid-1940s in the Dominican Republic, working as a surveyor for Standard Oil. He was 21 when he went down there, a small-town kid in a foreign country. He learned Spanish there, and continued to study it for most of the rest of his life, even going to language school in Mexico when he was in his 70s.
During his time in the Dominican Republic, he wrote letters to his sister Elizabeth, who kept them. I’ve got them now.
For most of my life, my dad’s dry sense of humor has been a source of great entertainment to me; it has gone dormant lately, which makes reading these letters a powerful mix of high entertainment and great mourning.
Here are some of my favorite things he wrote.
Anybody that enjoys living had better not criticize the government (of the Dominican Republic).
-(dated only Saturday, and written in 1944 from Houston, as he waited to go to the Dominican Republic. He got to the DR in March.)
The main hobby of the children around here is to stand outside our door and stare at the Americanos.
-March 26, 1944
There is a fruit they call the guanabana. It grows about 6 or 8 inches long and is sort of egg shaped. It is covered with a tough skin that has a resemblance of thorns on it but they won’t stick you. The insides have a sweet taste but make you think you are eating somebody’s attempt at making synthetic rubber.
-April 1, 1944
I am using a Spanish typewriter that the office in the capital sent out to us. Since it varies slightly from an American typewriter, don’t be surprised at anything that it writes.
-May 11, 1944
We went to the show last Sunday. Among other features was a British newsreel and it sure did tell how the British were winning the war.
-May 12, 1944
I won $4.40 on a horse named Sleepy.
-September 4, 1944 (reporting on going to the horse races)
I bet you thought I wasn’t going to write to you any more but I get lots of fun fooling people like that.
-September 19, 1944
Sparks is now laid up in the hospital. He had a boil…and he let the local doctor (that is just an honorary title) fool with it.
-October 1, 1944
You said in your letter that Ernie went to visit Leon and Betty. I am glad to hear that they had company but I would like to know who Ernie is.
-February 21, 1945
Oh, yes, from the numerous boyfriends mentioned in each letter you write, I would say that you are what is commonly known as “fickle.”
-February 27, 1945
I liked Miami very much, mainly because it was so different from anyplace else I ever was – I dare say that there are more ways to get rid of your money in Miami than in any other city in the world.
-March 5, 1945
You are always speaking of playing cards – what kind of cards do you play – and for how much?
-March 16, 1945
San Juan has a movie theatre so we get to go to the movies once in a while…last night we saw a British film, which I hope doesn’t happen again.
-April 1, 1945
When I started this, I had a lot of things to say, but I seem to have forgotten most of them so I can’t do anything else but quit.
-May 9, 1945
I might consider going to Baltimore but I don’t have any business up there and beside the trend in the Green family seem to be towards becoming —– Yankees so I don’t want to expose myself needlessly.
-May 20, 1945
This is really a nice camp and I wouldn’t mind living here at all if there were someone here to do nothing with me.
-May 27, 1945
There was more, of course. He wrote about the work, trouble with the big bosses, the shortage of tires, what he wanted to do when he came back to the states, things he bought for himself (a camera, a watch, a custom-made suit), his Dominican girlfriend Blanca, and gave lots of (probably unsolicited) advice to his sister. Together, it creates real-time view of events that were pivotal in his life.
But it’s the pieces, the glimmers of his signature humor, that I most treasure. And it helps ease me through the loss of that humorous outlook.
I was a Girl Scout, from early grade school all the way through high school. My Brownie uniform was my only store-bought dress – my mom sewed everything else. She was the Brownie leader; now that it’s too late to find out, I’d really like to know why she decided to take on that responsibility. She was painfully shy, not much of a person who joined something in order to take on a leadership role. In fact, at the time I first joined Brownies and she became the leader, she’d only been driving for a few years. She was never a bold or adventurous person.
(The day my sister ate mushrooms – we’d made a place setting on the seat of the backyard swing, using the mushrooms we’d picked from the grass as plates, and she ate one – we had to take a cab to Dr. Carr’s office to get her stomach pumped. That was it: my dad insisted that it was time my mom learn to drive. She was a tentative driver for the rest of her years. My sister still won’t eat mushrooms. It was a pivotal day in the family history.)
Anyway, Brownie meetings were usually at our house, after school. We lived on 28th Street, just a few blocks from Overton Elementary School; while I do not have a specific memory of this, I suppose all the girls in the troop walked together from school to the meetings. Other than getting to wear that awesome light brown dress, I can’t remember too much about Brownies, but a few things float up if I try:
• Learning to set the table. (It still bothers me if the knife points the wrong way.)
• I was so shy that selling Girl Scout cookies, at 50¢/box, was too much for me. I could barely squeak out a sale pitch to the Strongs or the Simses or the Dennises, neighbors I’d known all my life.
• Sometimes we wore white cotton gloves with our uniforms, for those more formal meetings (whatever they were).
• Our troop took cooking classes at Maxey Community Center. My Certificate of Completion (dated March 30, 1966) is framed and hangs in my kitchen as proof.
• The way we learned to tie a square knot: we sat in a circle, each with a length of white cotton rope that we tied together with our neighbor’s hunk of rope. Then we put the circle of rope behind us and leaned back against it. Knots that were tied wrong slipped apart and the incompetent knotter would pitch backward.
So I progressed onward, to Cadette, Junior, Senior levels. For many of those summers, I’d go to camp at Camp Rio Blanco, about an hour’s drive away from home. My first year at camp was harrowing. I didn’t know anyone there, I didn’t understand camp protocol, I’d never spent more than one night at a time away from home, I was shy. But I stuck it out; the only truly awful thing that happened that year was the day at breakfast when the counselor at our table made each of us eat a stewed prune before she’d allow us to leave the table. (The idea of just refusing that silly demand never crossed my mind.) I could feel my throat constrict as that prune slid past. It was disgusting and it remains the only prune I’ve ever eaten. Even their recent rebranding to “dried plums” can’t erase that memory.
As much as I dreaded camp that first time, I grew to love it and went every summer through the 10th grade. I liked wearing the camp uniform – dark green shorts, white shirt, green knee socks with red garters, and if I was lucky, the double loop of gold braid over my shoulder that marked me as a patrol leader. I liked the flag ceremonies, singing together in the dining hall after meals, hiking to Arrowhead Mesa or to Silver Falls, playing in the creek (wet years only), the swinging bridge across the draw, sitting around the campfire, swimming. And the friends I was starting to make.
We stayed in tents that were built on wooden platforms. The sides and ends of the tents would roll up and on those hot summer nights, we’d usually roll up all the sides to let the breezes cool us off. There were four or five girls per tent; the beds were metal cots with thin mattresses that we’d spread our sleeping bags across. Our footlockers would be stowed under the beds.
My long range plan was to be a camp counselor, and I’d planned on taking Counselor-in-Training the summer after my junior year in high school. But a late-spring bout of mononucleosis left me unable to pass the required physical, and so, suddenly, my Girl Scout camp career was over.
My old footlocker was kept in service, though, in the store room off the garage. It was stuffed full of the random things my parents kept: my dad’s high school diploma was in it, as was a string of beads my mom got from a pen-pal, a broken doll, and a handful of old and faded (and unmarked) snapshots. And inside the lid: the packing list from camp, with a wavy line through the line for bedding. I used a sleeping bag, after all.
Folded into the cedar chest at the foot of my parents’ bed – the Girl Scout leader uniform my mom had worn. So, while I don’t know why she decided to take on that particular challenge, I can safely surmise that she had memories that were fond enough to warrant saving her uniform for decades.
Her uniform and my footlocker went to the estate sale.